Performance for the Festival of Feminist Culture and Action IT'S FIRST AND IT'S A GIRL in Skopje, August 2020.
Good evening to all. What you listened to is the composition "Only mine" by Darja Janošević, for the dance show of the same name, which we choreographer Igor Koruga and I made in 2016. The play "Only Mine Alone" was inspired by the book "Depression: Public Feeling" and the following words of the American theorist Ann Cvetkovich: "If we manage to get to know each other through our depressions, then we may be able to use it to create new models of sociability. It will not only lead us out of our impasses but also help us understand the impasse as a state of productive potential. ” Let's get to know each other through our depressions. And so we create new models of sociability ... A dead end as a state of productive potential ... These words are gaining even more complex meanings in 2020 than before, right?
I am currently in Rijeka, Croatia. There, after a couple of months of numerous attempts at planning and failed organizational plans, I somehow managed to come and meet two other colleagues with a negative test. We are trying to work on a new show. I think about whether working on the play is our conscious attempt to return to the old normalcy? The show is called "Tender Fights". I think about what the word tenderness means. What is a tender, as in "someone who tends, like a gardener". I think about what is essential today, what is non-essential. Which occupations are important for society today, and which are not, is it perhaps now clear that I myself have internalized the attitude of society that art is not of great importance for all of us? Why do I feel guilty that my friend is working a 16-hour shift in a covid hospital, and my job is to create a dance? I think, today more than ever before, about how much I am an accomplice in maintaining the socio-political-economic order that I constantly criticize. Is criticism the same as the real intention to collapse that system? I think about the idea of a planetary general strike. I think about how to banish the patriarchal white supremacist imperialist anthropocentric neoliberal capitalism, not only from the reality that begins on the other side of our skin but how to banish it from our own bodies and minds? I think about what art is today? What kind of dance, as a medium, as a form, as an experience, that we need in 2020? I read erotic poetry, I think with Audre Lorde about how eroticism can be a real source of strength and power. I think about how to keep a safe physical distance when it is necessary, but at the same time open my heart wide.
It makes me happy to be here with you today. I think that thinking together is extremely important today, but just as important as the experience of being together. Instead of watching a video of my face saying something, I wanted to share with you a slightly different kind of experience. That is why I leave you to listen to another composition by Darja Janošević, entitled "Samo Igorovo" (Only Igor's). This composition was made by Darja in May 2020 and intended for choreographer Igor Koruga and his speedy recovery. Igor was treated for a long time for a specific type of chronic Covid19, he spent months in a hospital bed, struggling over and over again with all possible complexities, unknowns, and uncertainties of the disease itself, as well as our health system. He says that he listened to this composition whenever he could not fall asleep.
3. „Samo Igorovo” (Only Igor's)